Time will tell..

It is exactly a month today. 29^th of September’12 will be a date always remembered.

I am happy of what I found within me on that day. It was long due. A month of introspection probably cleared the remaining grey shadows of earlier grey spots and life is clearer than ever. There is no confusion and disagreement between the mind and the heart now; they both sing the same song.

I believe in the theory of rebirth and past lives. I do not know the reasons quite well, but I see its existence. Normally, we connect dots in our lives since our birth for this very life, and find it puzzling and confusing at times to find that the dots do not connect. It is natural for us to do so, as our memory allows us to only see things from our birth and not beyond. Not usually. I suppose it is not easy to recall & remember all the life times at one point of time and then be ready to play another game separately in the form of this life. The associations we had made earlier would call us, the fights we have fought will push us, the sins we have committed will demoralize us and our earlier promises will keep haunting us. So nature has put on a Forgotten Implant which gets triggered the moment we change the body. We forget the past; we are in today to play another game....

But there is a catch. The past will never leave us, we will always be moved by that, unknowingly. The implant works on the mind at a superficial level only, only till it reaches our memories, so that we indulge in today’s life with a full heart. But the mind functions from deep within, it keeps a track of all we have done and calculates and plan today’s actions with all past charges. What is the way out?

There is one. We get into the layers beneath, we overcome few of the FIs ( Forgotten Implants) and take responsibility for past actions and get charge out of them. We see them " as is " and the track is simplified, those past actions loose their charge on future. We are free of those sins we committed. It is a gradual process and takes long time and hard focus till we do it for most of our past, thus creating happiness for today and tomorrows to come. The time taken could be few lifetimes though.

..When I connected the dots for myself, I reached a little past. I saw that we had been together earlier as one, and I saw why we parted ways in today; we wanted to test a life without each other for fun. We promised each other that we would be back together again, only undermining the impact of the Forgotten Implant. We gave each other an identity which we carry till today so that it would help us recognize each other; just that she does not know about it anymore. Just that I also did not know about it until some time back.

..Doesn’t The promise haunt her? Would she recognize me in any life times to come? Would we be back together any time?