I just wish..

“I know God won’t give me anything I can’t handle. I just wish he didn’t trust me so much." - Mother Teresa 

How true the thought is! There are tough times in life and one cannot make a better statement .

Challenges have always inspired me, and I have always loved them, but at times..I got defeated. Completely defeated. So much so that I thought of quitting the game and starting another but was saved..unfortunately or fortunately..only time will tell.

Pain can be handled, but it becomes difficult when it continues for long and one does not know if it will ever end. That is when one starts succumbing..he sees hope as finished and he falls, falls for never getting up, falls defeated. Love or Hope of being loved is the only thing which stands between defeat and win..it is the only pulling factor because it gives you a goal, a resting place, and a reason to live. It is the only light at the end of the tunnel. It keeps you going..but if it fades, so does the strength in the legs.

I do not know how to rate one’s abilities. I sometimes feel that I am very able, and then there are times when I feel I cannot go on. When I think deep, I feel the ability does not change much, it is the confidence on the ability which shakes. The confidence reasons, it sees results, it goes logical, it is worldly, it is emotionless..the ability does not reason, it does not see results, it is not logical - it is inherent, it is natural, it is godly and it is part of emotion. Though, it is factored by physical and mental state to be executed into people’s sensory format.

What is Love: Hundreds of books can be written about it and even then it would remain outside the purview of words..and rightly so. It is beyond words. The simple reason for this is that Love is not worldly, it is godly, it is unlimited and Words talk in limitations by their origin and nature. If I attempt to put in limitations to Love I would probably say that: Love is a feeling of togetherness. Period. If I try to define the character of Love I would say that it has a scale, which means it is represented or felt in degrees..from negative to positive Infinity. Period. You cannot understand Love, you can just feel it. You cannot describe it, you can just show it.

It is only faith which can endure hard times, and it is only love which can produce faith. We can brood on times gone by and worry over the future to arrive..but I do not know if it will solve anything. I just know that I pull up myself every morning, I see a smiling You, and I say to God: “ I know you won’t give me anything I can’t handle.  I just wish you didn’t trust me so much.”